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Last nite I did some rough calculation on my finance for this year. I had to do this because of the Mission Impossible that I am in now, buying a house. This is a very expensive mission :( I wrote my expense posts and tried to find posts that can be tightened. And all I can think of is the living cost post. Well, the food expenses is kinda high in the city. Also, I had a bad habit when it comes to shopping, fortunately not too bad. But, unfortunately, the cost-cutting didn’t have a significant effect on my financial condition. The next step is to find additional income sources. And pathetically, it was dominated by selling my properties… :( (

This house-buying things really shaken my vision. Business dreams, marriages, gadgets, car, everything seemed hard to achieve now. But, the good thing is, now I am more careful in spending money, well hopefully. Buying a house, using a bank loan, IS a liability, but in the long term I hope it is a way to save money, especially from a bachelor lust of hobbies that costs a lot.

I remember when I started to do some interviews at Sun, Linda said that I was kinda fit in the career path. But my ambitions was all about running my own business. The main reason is ego and personal-satisfaction. But that was before I have to think about paying credits every month :) Now, I AM in the professional path, having quite good sallary for my age, and a nice career path, and most of all, a regular income. So like everybody said, most people don’t run their own business because of fear of losing the feeling of safety from the regular paycheck :) Well, I am one of the fearful people now… yes, it means, I am going in another direction from my ambitions… Well, I guess life’s ain’t always how you want it to be.

Btw, one of the additional income source that I could think of is writing. I kinda love writing, non-fiction, but not very proud of my skill, not to mention that I haven’t wrote a book before. But, now I am thinking, maybe this is the answer to my financial problem. I don’t know how much you can make by writing books, but it surely better than selling my stuff :p And also, maybe it’s an alternative of my professional goals, being a writer and a professional at Sun, or maybe another company, it sounds very nice and puts off a lot of questions, at least for now. Besides, I have achieved nothing all this time, thinking about business, maybe I’m just don’t have what it takes. Maybe, this is not the first time I questioned my goals, but I think this is a good time to start taking actions on other options, writing. I have wasted years not having the guts to try, and now I am desperately need more money, I hope it can be a good motivation :) help me God.

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