.:abhista:.

aslm,

been having this thoughts for a while now, that I should be happier. In the end of 2005 I’ve got so many good things comin’, promoted to permanent staff which tackle the frustration on the house loan, nice paycheck, free trip to SG, and lotsa other stuff. And this beginning of 2006, there’s more, got a raise on transportation, another free trip to SG, another raise on April, better projects, and maybe more…

but, I still think that I am much happier man, some years back. Got stuck somewhere in the middle of memories of something I can’t have….

waslm
~haveyoueverneededsomeonesobad?

Hai epribodi

I wish we all a very happy and prosperous new year…

I must admit, this year might be the hardest year for me… lonely ramadhan, lonely nights (hayyaah), and those mindful things from work and personal life… By November it got soo intense that I thought it couldn’t be heavier… just keep praying…

And now, last work day in 2005, some of the hardest thing I faced come stumbling down.. one by one, giving me some of the most exciting feelings each time :p I can say that I got over the hill. Alhamdulillah… Still so many battle to go, but surely I ain’t losing this war. Hopefully by monday I’ll get my battery fully recharged and get a mind tune up. Let 2006 come, and let’s make history, great ones!

aslm wrwb.

Bbrp hari ini gua harus bangun pagi dan stay up, karena harus ngejar belajar materi SCJP, tp entah kenapa monster kasur selalu menghajarku dengan telak :p Jadinya, gua nyalain weker di jam meja, dan weker ginian nyalanya nonstop dan gak bisa snooze kayak alarm hp lho :p Dan emang sih gua kebangun pas wekernya nyala. Tapi jadinya malah tambah ngaco….. dulu sering gua ngerasa dah bangun dan matiin weker padahal cuma dalam mimpi doang dan si weker tetep nyala. Tapi kemarin pagi, gua bener-bener berasa nyata bahwa si weker itu rusak dan gak bisa dimatiin, sehingga nyalaaaaa trus gak berenti selama bbrp jam sampe pagi. Gua sampe bingung banget, ngetok-ngetok tuh jam tetep gak bisa berenti. Berbagai cara dicoba, sampe muter-muter… n you know what,... in the end gua kebangun beneran, dan terheran-heran bahwa gua bisa mimpi matiin weker selama 1.5 jam… fuih…

waslm wrwb

Hari terakhir training nih, dan pertama kalinya selama di sini, hujaaan. Anton sempet nyuruh gua bawa payung karena skrg lagi musim hujan, tapi dia ngomongnya pas gua mo berangkat, jd gak sempet balik ke kos ngambil payung ato mbeli di jalan. Karena hujannya cukup deras, gua cuma bisa bengong di pinggir jalan Setelah agak reda (enggak juga sih, cuma gua dah telat banget :p), nekat nyebrang jalan ke 7/11, dan ternyata memang ada jual payung di situ, lumayanlah $4.30…

Kebetulan gua lagi make sepatu gua (the only shoes I got) yang agak licin, dan seperti yg gua khawatirkan, gua kepeleset di jalan :p Maklum trotoarnya bagus euy, pake batu alam :p Alhamdulillah baju dan celana tidak sempat bercumbu dengan lantainya Posisi gua jatoh bener-bener mirip posisi Madonna di cover album terbarunya loh hehehe.

Sampai hari ini, ternyata SG nggak sempurna juga kok, ada juga atap bocor, hotelnya juga gak beda ama JKT, banyak juga yang nyebrang pas lagi rambu nyebrang merah :p Dan, emang rasanya lebih mahal, jadi gua gak akan ngikutin jejak seorang teman, yg di training pertamanya di SG malah nyari kerja )

One other interesting thing was, when I was in HMV store, looking for Dream Theater’s CDs, there’s this girl browsing thru the DT’s albums. Man, this is something cool, I thought And out of nowhere I said things, and we ended up chatting eagerly, about DT of course. That was really not like me, a shy guy I didn’t really catch her name though, it was chinnesse’s name and I am really bad in remembering chinnesse’s name But, unfortunately she was with her boyfriend, who might be thinking of nasty things to do to me :p It was fun though, having a chat with the local girl hehehe.

... trip oversea
akhirnya kesampaian juga mimpi pgn liat bagian dunia yg lain, walaupun deket banget, yg penting pake paspor dan gratis :p Yg bikin lega sih, krn persiapannya ribet bgt, tp akhirnya sampe jg, walaupun terpaksa deposit S$150 utk hotel gara2 gak punya CC. fuih. Untung msh cukup buat makan.

My first impression was, is this country real, cause it looks so much like in the movies It was very clean, the road is in very good condition, with so many big trees in the middle.

The funny thing is, everytime I see Indonesian faces, I was always interested to hear what they were talking about, and sometimes I realize they we’re Malaysians. And the rest is talking about shopping :p Yes, Orchard Rd was said to be a shoppers’ paradise.

But, the shops really doesn’t interest me, well maybe because I don’t have a lot of money :p But, I am more interested in seeing the people, the habit, the culture… But, in the second day, akhirnya ketemu juga yg nyeleneh, yg nyebrang sembarangan, gelandangan, sampah sembarangan, but cuma dikiit, dan sebagian dilakukan oleh foreigners hehehe. Tapi kalo BB alias bau badan, sepertinya gak pandang bulu tuh, yg berbulu dan tidak tetep selalu ada :p Tapi tetep, banyak hal unik yg menurut gua keren, seperti penjual es krim dengan roti di sepanjang taman di Orchard Rd, shoppers going crazy until their legs scream, trishaw, etc. I actually found Es Teler 77 and Ayam Penyet shops, but I didn’t try those, what’s the point of coming here if only to eat Indonesian Foods hehehe. So far, gua cuma makan Burger King, McD, dan es krim roti :p Sarapan di hotel, dan hari ini hampiiiir aja makan omelet with B2 hehe, gak tau dan gak nanya sih. Taunya waktu ada orang Arab yg mesen itu tp dibilang sama yg jaga bahwa itu gak halal :p Trus kata kokinya, sorry I didn’t notice you’re muslim hmmm, mungkin jgn cukur jenggot kemaren :p

Not much money, but I’ll take as many photos as I can :p Now, the instructor is already coming, need to stop this, gonna continue later I guess…

aslm wrwb,

rasanya tahun ini udah capek banget, banyak beban fikiran, tp kok makin deket desember makin kacau.. sebenernya bukan kacau juga sih, tp yaa pusiing. Soal KK, udah jadi sih, udah submit ke imigrasi, tp masih blm dipanggil utk foto. Padahal tinggal bbrp hari lagi nih, kartu kredit gak ada kabar sama sekali ujian SCJP besok, tp blm belajar, gara2 nginep di cipinang urusan keluarga, dilanjutkan dgn training di klien 3 hari penuh… duuh. Blm urusan duit dan KPR yg masih gak ada kejelasan sama sekali ( tp jelas paling bikin gemetaran, passport yg blom jadi, padahal semua dah booked untuk senin ((

Gua curhat di sini, jelas, karena gak punya cewek :p Kata bang Socrates, satu kata/hal yg bisa meredakan derita dunia adalah cinta. Tapi gua mikir, gimana kalo cinta yg bikin menderita? Gua cuma bisa ketawa gila, ketika ada sms yg berisi… ‘jgn sms/nelp dia, pacarnya lagi marah’ buset, sejak kapan gua jadi pengganggu rumah tangga orang… hmm, God, give me kindness, give me beauty, give me truth…

~hey,who’sthatgirl…

waslm wrwb

Aslm wrwb,

Today I attend a coffee talk with some of my coworkers and board of directors. When it was my turn to speak, I talked about how hard it was to do my job with the absence of a knowledge base of experts on software area, esp Java. And also about how Java ES still doesn’t have big mindshare in the Indonesian developers community. From those two issues, I got a lot of feedbacks, which I can conclude into two words: Contacts and Passions.

Contacts, this means that I should have more contact to discuss and share knowledge. Before this, I usually only escalated my issues to my peer and let him contact our regional peers. This is how the procedure works, but in some cases I really need to have my own contacts to gain more knowlegde and be better. Nice one, thx

Passions, this means that I gotta have passion for my job. Even the big boss said, if I love what I do, that’s a great gift, that is to enjoy what you do means you’re not working I do enjoy what I do before, and my current job is even more enjoyable. But one of the managers said that I gotta have more passion, and share in the community. If the community doesn’t familiar with Java ES, well I have my share of the blame. It reminded me how I was so passionate that some even call me religious in Java :p Aah, it hit me good, I share too little lately. Even better advice… thx again.

And the Personal Profile Analysis report just came in. It is interesting to read good stuff about yourself, right? Hmm, it seems like I cheated on the test somehow that I got exactly what I wanted to look like. But hey, maybe it’s just what I am, coz I remember answering all of the questions honestly Anyway, it shows some facts that all of this time I couldn’t see or figure out. Really helps me to define my objectives.

The funny part of the report is, it said that I might be in a frustion currently, and should be looked into by my manager to avoid performance fall. I didn’t expect them to find out that I was frustrated, man… the machine is damn good. But what is it that frustratres me? Is it the project’s stress, or is it my dissatisfaction of my peer, or my personal life? Well maybe the complication of all….

Words to describe me from the PPA: Innovative self-starter, assertive, decisive, confident, positive, gregarious, eager, restless, independent, strong-willed, alert, competitive.

Aslm wrwb.

Hi, today is my company’s 5th anniversary. Not very keen in the beginning, since I have only been here for 5 months, but I should enjoy it rite? At least I get to wear casual and get free lunch hehehe.

There was a guest speaker, Mr. Nos, giving a presentations about vision, mission, values, etc. I must admit, he was a great speaker, I didn’t get bored, eventhough the material is not new to me. He even gave me new perspective on the subject. Afterwards, lunch time, I had too much rice that I failed to taste all of the food

After that, the bowling competition!! I was shy and nervous, coz I’ve never played bowling before, I was afraid of embarassing myself in front of my workmates My team didn’t actually win, we’re the 8th, and the prizes are only for 1st to 7th rank, hehehe. Well, but in the second game, which is not counted in the competition, I actually start to get the feeling, and scored 137, the highest in my team, and if I’m not mistaken, the second of all game, after my boss Rival who got 156. Not bad, for personal record, not to mention that it was fun and free :p

So guys, anybody wants to go bowling?!

Aslm wrwb,

Kemarin malam ada kebakaran di daerah kos gua, cukup gede dan menghanguskan 7 rumah. Ini pertama kalinya ada kebakaran yang deket banget sama tempat gua tinggal, dan untuk beberapa waktu cukup bikin gua panik…

Kemarin, jam 7 kurang, gua sedang makan malem bareng2 tim development di kantor, dan Iwan nelpon, begitu gua angkat, backsoundnya orang rame dan Iwan kedengaran cukup panik juga, dia cuma bilang ada kebakaran, pulang cepetan… Awalnya gua masih ketawa, dan belum completely sadar bahwa ini bahaya, tapi orang-orang di kantor nyuruh gua langsung pulang, melupakan makanan, laptop, dll. Akhirnya gua emang langsung pulang, untungnya walau sebagian jalan di tutup, masih ada jalan untuk mencapai kos gua. Di sana gua cuma masukin semua dokumen penting ke dalem tas, trus nongkrong di atap kos, ngeliatin keadaan apinya. Alhamdulillah, setelah 1 jam lebih, apinya padam juga. Mungkin musibah ini satu lagi peringatan… Astaghfirullah…

Aslm,

Pertama kalinya gua sholat jum’at kebasahan Waktu makan siang sih gak nyadar bakalan ujan, gak gelap-gelap amat kok. But, tepat selesai makan, pas mau keluar dari kantin, tiba-tiba tetesan-tetesan air jatuh dari langit, berkah…

Karena baru makan, gua gak mau lari, jalan santai aja, walau basah dikit. Nyampe di Mesjid, tempat masih ada jadi santai-santai aja… tapi sepanjang khutbah, hujan gak berenti, dan terkadang makin menjadi-jadi. Sebagian atap tenda dari terpal itu bocorr!! Dan tikar-tikar itu pun basaaah… di tengah khutbah, banyak orang sudah basah, dan terpaksa berdiri nyempil-nyempil So be it a rainy friday pray…

Gak cukup gitu, setelah nunggu ujan reda, gua mulai jalan kaki balik ke kantor klien, tapi lucu sekali, di tengah jalan ternyata hujannya belum puas hehehe. Jadilah gua basah-basahan ke klien, menyiapkan presentasi dan demo satu jam lagi… brrr